Self-hatred never originates within oneself but rather is a projection onto oneself from one's environment. In that sense, self-hatred is not hatred of the self at all—rather it is hatred of how the self is perceived.
While we are all celestial beings, just like the Sun, we are also human beings—and human beings are emotional creatures. So, while I hope that, just like the Sun, you'll continue to shine even without acknowledgment for your efforts, I completely understand why that might be hard to do.
Typically when we think 'image' we think 'visual' but our self-image consists, not only of how we look but also of how we sound. Communication is a integral part of what it means to be human so the way we sound when we speak is indivisible from our self-image.
